Life is a delicate balancing act! And I’ve been falling down and feeling lots of pain all year long!
I tried very hard to accept the fact that my vision problems are permanent, a result of being assaulted. On one hand, I’m pissed off beyond words (excuse my language) and on the other hand, I’m happy that the crazy attendant didn’t take a knife and stab me to death.
This past year, I was totally off balance, allowing the “pissed off” side to weigh me down, almost to the point of no return. Everything that could go wrong in my life DID GO WRONG, all in the span of a year. It was if I was attracting bad karma because I was so
angry!! 
Am I still angry…You betcha! And I believe that I have every right to be BUT I also know it’s not going to a) make my eyes magically get better or b) make me any happier or healthier…if I continue down this path!
So, I’m going to let the “I’m glad I wasn’t stabbed to death” side of me take over and tip the balancing scale of life way over to the other side. I’m going to accept my vision challenges and learn to laugh as I trip down the aisles of stores when I’m blinded by the lights...(At least I’ll make little kids giggle)…I’m going to be silly as much as possible because when I’m silly, I write GREAT comedy and I’m going to face 2010 with a Que Sara Sara attitude.
Most importantly of all, I’m going to thank G-d, every day, for all my blessings!
Oh my! Debi, of course you’re pissed off. I’m pissed off for you. And glad you weren’t killed. That’s terrible. I’ve never had anything like that in my life, so I can’t know how you feel. I do know that it always seems to take me longer to recover from things than I think it should, and I’m usually not very kind to myself along the way.
Life IS a balancing act, isn’t it? I think mine’s pretty severely out of balance, at present, but I really know internally what I need to do to help things get back in balance.
I think what made me the most frustrated was I never want to be a burden to my family and I was scared that I was going to go blind! Then I started focusing on all the blessings in my life. It helped me get to a better place emotionally!
And you will….Even if you stumble a few times along the way!
I am so sorry about your assault and injury. I am also tickled pink that you are going to let the good thing you didn’t die thing rule because that’s certainly a big ole bunch more important! You really do make me smile, even telling this story and please try to stay upright!
A BIG Thank-you!